Today is when I receive the decision. Should be at seven, which is around four hours from now. This will either be very exciting or very disappointing. Maybe anti-climatic would be better. I’m predicting that I got in. That’s my prediction. I might be wrong, but I feel decent about it. I would be very happy. But if not then I spend two years going to a state school. I already got accepted to a couple state schools, so I do have somewhere I can go.
It’s kinda funny. I’ve almost been waiting for this since last summer. That summer in Japan might’ve changed the trajectory of my life. When I had just come out of high school applying to schools in Japan hadn’t even come to mind. And if I hadn’t of gone to community college these two years it would’ve been impossible in the first place. Almost feels like fate. Sometimes you almost feel like you’re drawn to something even despite of yourself. At least I can say with a clean conscience no matter the outcome I played the cards I possessed decently enough I think. Now I just got to see where I stand.
Here’s to good news.
Maybe if everything turns out well I can smile back on all those who mocked me. But what all of them didn’t quite understand is that I never played by their rules. I excel from the shadows and it is from there I will live and die.
And if things go badly then dammit can’t say I didn’t try. I guess time with tell. Time the great equalizer.
And fuck I just realized tags are broken. How? When? Last time I clicked on them they were working fine. When did they break.
Update: rejected, well guess i have two more though maybe one id have to seriously consider whether id want to go to the fourth school