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Drives People Away From Church

Categories: christianity

I was thinking about the real reason why many people fall away from churches and Christianity. I honestly don’t think it has much to do with the truth about reality or anything like that. I don’t think it really has much to do with verses which they object to in the Bible. No, I think the leading one is really sexual desire and how Christian marriages are supposed to work. I think no matter how you read it, you’re really not supposed to masturbate or have sex outside of marriage. The problem is that once a child starts going through puberty around 13, and the average age of marriage in the United States as of 2022 for men, that’s like a whole 15 years where the person is just supposed to suppress any sexual thoughts. I think this is one of the more laughable parts of Christianity. Unless they’re a sage, I don’t think anybody actually follows this. The problem is that the elders are usually older men, and they were probably no better themselves in their youths, lecturing to younger men about the dangers of lust.

色々悩みです

最近はね
辛抱はすごく難しいことですね
俺が日本で大学に行きたいです
でも、まだ英語で教えられたい
当然海外に行くと試験は必要だからこの10月と12月にACTを取る予定があります
ACTだけではなくて日本語能力試験も挑戦したいです
JLPTも12月です
今書いてる日は9月21日です
行きたい大学と専攻はもう決めました
具体的に言いませんけど

理想的に計画通りに勧めます
駄目だったらいま他の計画も考えたいです
問題はお金と時間ですね
まぁ、皆の問題とあまり変わってないね
今のは待ってる時間です
未来はまだ不明
不明
試験はうまく出来るか
日本は経済的の視点から見ると大丈夫かな
日本の学位はアメリカで舐めるかな
日本語は上達するかな
仕事は出来るかな
日本に行かないとビジネスと歴史の専攻をするべきだろう
わからないから色々な悩みは頭で浮かべてる
日本に住みたいだろう
在住は可能性があるから
日本の大学から卒業すると大学院に進学するべきか
大学院から卒業して3年の間で働きたら在住権はできそう
在住権は出来たら日本会社で働く必要はなくなる
結婚も考えるべきですね
正直、白女と結婚したくない
マレシアとか中国は悪くない選択だと思う
でもな、俺の在留資格次第です
外国人と結婚するとビザは楽勝です
例えば、日本の在住を持ってマレシアの女と結婚して
リモートワークしながら半年は日本に住む
他の半年はマレシアに住む
でも、税金とかビザ問題は色々あるだろうな
アメリカに戻るべきか
アジアに行くのはナイブかな
わからん
わからないよ
どうしよう

Sulla Chapter 2

Tags: fiction

Sulla had come to the bustling metropolis known as Abingdon. The marketplace was buzzing with merchants selling their wares, wagons going past, house-wives searching for ingredients. There was a message board with advertisements. There were missing persons. There was a declaration by the king. There were bounties. Sulla was busy investigating one particular advertisement. It read: “Beautiful Girl Slave Auction”. Sulla had long thought to himself that such a honorable hero of justice as himself should have a young, female slave to attend him—which was only fitting of a hero of justice. The women of the world, he reckoned to himself, couldn’t help but fall in love with his charm, so he was doing them a favor. Under it were names of slaves which were to be auctioned the next week. A certain one caught his eye. Her hair was green. Her country of origin it said was “Nippon”. Sulla didn’t know what a Nippon is. Said her measurements were 82-57-85. Age of 18 years old. Said to be a magician, and to have received magic training. Says hymen still in tact. Her name is listed as “Shizuka Masou”. Sulla became immediately interested. Unfortunately, he had blown all his money had made on his last job on drinking, gambling, and hiring prostitutes.

Sulla Chapter One

Tags: fiction

Close to tears, Theodora looks up to Sulla, “Master, sir, what do you want out of me?”

While continuing on his meal, “I need a teacher.”

“A teacher, Master Sulla? What have I got to teach you.”

“I struggle with learning things, you see. When I learn something I need a distraction.”

“A distraction…”, Theodora looks down at herself, at the outfit that this man had forced her into.

“Gahaha, looking good my sweet.”

Story Brainstorming

Tags: Fiction

Okay, I need to come with with names.

Country:

Kalistina -> Kalistinians

England -> Albion -> Albinians

Rome -> Lavinium -> Lavinians

China -> Cathay -> Cathanians

Russia -> Sythia -> Sythians

Original Continent -> Altrix

People:

Main character - Sulla

Slave - Eutropia

Reigning King of Albion -> Diodicias

Queen is dead

17 year old princess -> Agrippina

Map:

Map

Story Ideas

Tags: Fiction

One of my life time goals is to write essays and stories. I didn’t have the strength or luxury to be a philosopher, but when it comes to stories I think that is something I can do. I’ve always loved them. I loved being immersed in other worlds. Three things I want to do.

  1. SAO type story, where the main character is a cynical sort engaging in a war in a virtual world while navigating everyday reality.
  2. I kind of want to imitate Rance. This would probably be the most ambition, since I’d want to spread it over three books. Main character would be an intelligent, but self-serving and not caring a lot for what other people want or think. Also, he’d be very horny and have few qualms about where he took out that energy. I want to replace the demons with an elven type race. Like the Kalars.
  3. Third is a more generic, highly idealistic romance story between a couple of high-schoolers. I’m not entirely sure what the main girl would be. It’d either be a Chitanda or a Shio. The real story would probably mostly be about her, but the main character would still have personality. Think I’d want to base it in a private Christian school of some sort. Then the girl would be coming from a well off family. She is highly conservative, possesses noble ideals, and dismissive of others.

I think the second one is the one that’d be the most work. I was thinking about it yesterday. I think the origin would be that once upon a time all humans lived upon a single continent, then somehow humans discovered a “new world.” Upon that new continent there lived an ancient race called the Kalars (or replace this with something else). The Kalars had a curse where they could only be born female, in all other regards they were outstanding. They were nimble, intelligent, orderly, lived long lives, and didn’t show much signs of aging. They integrate in nature. They live in a kingdom dominated by the same house that as long as anybody can remember has ruled. The Kalars should be portrayed sympathetically, but should also showcase their ruthlessness. On the edge of the continent there exists an island. This island will mimic England. On the continent there will be four empires. One is an imitation of ancient China, one is an imitation of Tsarist Russia, one is imitation of imitation of the Roman republic, and last is a Papal like state. Monotheistic religion in (fake) Rome, (fake) Russia, and fake (Britain). (fake) China would be the largest out of them taking up 1/3 of the human-side of the continent. (fake) Russia would be 2/5, then (fake) Rome and is the other 4/15. Papacy exists within (fake) Rome. (fake) China was powerful once upon a time, but is towards the end of the current dynasties and is plagued with problems. (fake) Russia is large and has lots of people, but is ruled quite backwardly - a society with little morals and where the upper classes of society own most of the land and people as slaves or sharecroppers.

Kamala Day

Categories: Politics
Tags: America

I think when I was last talking about the election here it was about Joe Biden. I assumed after Joe Biden was elected president in 2020 that we’d just get two terms of him. Then when the polls started heavily favoring Trump I thought we might actually get a second term of Trump. Then something I don’t think anybody could have predicted, Biden dropped out and Harris became the nominee. She didn’t just become the nominee, it seems like she’s doing better at it that anybody predicted. I feel like I just don’t belong to this country. I’m just culturally different. Belong to a different age maybe. In any case, I really don’t want my future to be tied to the Democratic Party. Kamala isn’t like Biden. She is much farther left, she has a will of her own, and has no idea about economics. I think she’ll true to push thru some really awful stuff. Giving all first time house-buyers $25,000, paying off medical debt for people, unrealized capital gains, and going after “big grocery” with price control. Especially these last two, they might never be made into law, but the fact that they’re even floating around is enough to scare me. Then she says she’ll “toughen border security” and provide a pathway to citizenship for illegals. I bet what’ll happen is she will moderately toughen border security then provide hundreds of thousands with potential citizenship. Great, they just got themselves potentially millions of voters.

Off the Edge Discussion

Tags: School

Interaction I had with a teacher.

Me:

  1. I wonder what exactly qualifies as a “Flat Earther”. Is the way you determine this is by some “journalist” walking around the street and questioning people if they think the Earth is flat? I think if somebody came up to me with that question I’d tell them I believe in its flatness to mock them. Well, yesterday I was hearing about how China is to blame for Mexico and America’s drug problems. I was also hearing from this Indian man about how China is financing Pakistan to attack India. I, for one, would rather show up to a flat Earth conference then those self-help ones. Sounds more fun. One day I should investigate some of the claims made by Indian nationalists for fun. It really doesn’t surprise me that she’d make the claim, and I also don’t know if she gave any evidence to show her claim to be true.

Tory Party Is a Bad Joke

Categories: Politics

This party is so pathetic. Like it’s so pathetic it’s almost hilarious. I can’t comprehend why white people are so gleeful about this fate. It honestly sickens me. There’s no point of being a nationalist or trying to protect something like this. The game is already over. Hold the memory of what Britain achieved - it’s no understatement to say that this island brought revolution to the world. The world may hate it for that, people often don’t want to change. But, don’t go around thinking this country is going to reverse course anytime soon. If you really think that you’re a fool.

Welcome to the Internet

Tags: school

I have absolutely no qualms about the internet. I am positively glad that I was born in the age of the internet. I have been exposed to so many things that I would not have been if I had not had the internet. I probably spend more time on the computer than I do going outside. I wouldn’t trade it for anything. During the pandemic time I wasn’t glad that people were getting sick and potentially dying, but I was glad that I could do all my schooling from my laptop. It was just natural to me. I like the freedom I’m allowed on this computer and on the internet, way more than I’m allowed in ‘reality’. I don’t really care if people look down on such behavior, it’s what I want to do. I’ve always been a bit of an outcast. Yet, I’m fine with it. I’m fine playing the role of an outsider. It isn’t really something that is embarrassing to me. I didn’t want to be like the kids in high school I saw around me. That just never crossed my mind. Probably as a result of that, things ended up like this. Though I have no regrets with what I did with all that free time I had. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without those experiences. If I could I’d return.